Wednesday, 2 May 2007

It is very easy to sink into the thought process which constantly cajoles with the idea that everything in the past was good. Must admit it has happened to me a bit too often as well - in phases I must add. Childhood was good, so was school and home and friends and everything else that came and (sadly) went with it. But when I read this recurrent theme in someone else's thoughts, it becomes irritating. And then I realise that my past-was-good thoughts must be irritating as well, specially to someone who has not been a part of that past. Maybe even to someone who has.

The other sink pit is the 'I-have-changed' thought chain. Again an easy trap for the idle mind to fall into. The repetitive voice in the mind which keeps saying how 'I was' and how 'I am'. Along with comes all the things that 'I used to care about' but now don't. Etcetera etcetera etcetera...

Apart from the fact that it would indeed be quite pathetic if we remained at 26 what we were at 16, the thoughts somehow seem soaked with self pity.

Fact is, reading someone else's thoughts can sometimes tell you what not to think about - in unhealthy excess at least. And that is perhaps happening to me. It's a very unpleasant mirror to glance into, because the moment you do, you know what you will see and you don't like it.

What I can hope is that I have learnt something from what I have seen in that mirror. And yes, I shall keep glancing into it now and then, just to make sure that I am still on track!

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